hello.....

Hi! It has been so long. I was busy with pmr preparation and my son's final exam. Phew.....settled. My son got b for his English, c for bm, d for his maths. The rest, history. He failed hs science for the first time because I did not teach him science at all. Pity him. I am happy for him. He got 48 for maths. It is good. Before this, he always failed his maths. Oh ya, swipe fruits game, I am addicted to this game. I scored more than 300,000 so, I am considered as master of this game. It is level 9 but if I can reach level 12, I will be considered as legend of the wizards. I beat my son. He just reached level 6, good learner. Oh ya,my husband bought his galaxy note 3 from lok. Wow, the price.......I will buy it in January, next year. Lots of money to be used this year. This December, we will go to Medina, mecca and Istanbul. We have to buy winter garments and shoes. My budget....around rm2400. I really hope it is enough. I had already bought three jubah, robes to wear for my umrah. I love wearing them. Need to buy one more. Oh ya...the form five students met me today. I did not cry. I felt sad a bit, but that 's it. Well, no more students touched my heart. Next year, I will not become guru media anymore. Chu a will take over my job. I just hope everything will be OK. Cikgu aziz told me that he will give me another work to help our school. Whatever.....I did not want to ask. Oh ya our pss kl trip last time. I was stranded with my group at klcc. Luckily, the students could find us. I called one of them and told them where we were. So, they came to fetch us. The money that fatihah collected from non librarians, I gave to the students who had not enough money to buy food that night. So, everybody was happy and reached tampin safely. Thank you to Mr Gobi, our driver. My son had fun and showed his pictures excitedly to his papa. My students, they 're wonderful! Finally, my mom pop, pep, pop, pep about my face. She was not satisfied and asked me to do something about it. So, I used my homemade mask, white egg and honey to put on my face every night. Now, it looks OK. Hiiii...I was tired before. Playing swipe fruits games and key in PBS.....it showed on my face. Thanks to my mom...one cute boy in 1 a said I was beautiful yesterday, kah! Kah! Kah!

haiiiiiiiiiiiiii

We will have a trip to kl this Saturday. Organised by pss. The bus fare is free for all librarians but to non librarians, they have to pay rm 10 only. Haii....I am not satisfied with ng. There were not enough seats so i had to drop her boyfriend and boyfriend's best friend from the list. She did not want to join the trip. Then, ng's best friends didn't want to join. Last night, fatihah called me and said that Chua and tan did not want to join the trip. Aiya.....now I have extra seats. Really give me problem this girl. Just want to show their protest. I can also do that. I won't sign anything when they ask me to do that. Pity fatihah, she works so hard for the trip. If ng did not want to go, I do understand. The other girls, I really do not understand. If she goes to kl, she will walk with her boyfriend and her boyfriend's best friend will walk behind the couple. She won't walk with this mangkuk girls. Last week, when the girls asked me why did I drop her boyfriend and his best friend from the list, ah kang and cheong were there. They wanted me to check their English papers. After the girls left, I just did tui. The two boys asked me again and i said tui. I just feel to throw up. Haiya....they are so childish. I asked Wong wen xian whether he wants to join the Chinese girls. He said no, he will join my trip. I depend on him to control the students there, especially the Chinese. Luckily, I still have a few form five Chinese girls like kah Yin and Chi a Sean. Really spoil my mood. Oh ya, my January project next year. I want to buy two mobile phones, for me and my husband. Need to find the latest ones. My husband will ask who else his best friend, lok to buy them. I don't know, I thought I want to buy them myself but never mind. My husband always knows the best for me !

had fun with my students

Dialogue a: Ng : teacher, my mother's blog, lee kuan yew likes Tee: teacher, my blog, dato lee chong Wei likes Ng, my blog, najib likes Tee: my blog, teacher likes Thong: aiya, my blog, I like Kek: my blog, nobody likes Dialogue b: Kek: if i have a lot of money, I will buy a .........( showed a picture of a bra) Teacher: not that expensive Ng: if we put diamonds on that thing, it will be expensive maaaa. Dialogue c: Group presentation Group a: how to describe myself. (He showed a picture of a handsome Chinese actor ) I think I am handsome and tall like him Group b: how to describe myself ( showed a picture of k pop artist) I think I am pretty like her Ulul: ( looked at his friends) I don't want to live in this planet anymore

Today is hidup untuk makan time. This morning, we will go to eat fried kue tiaw stall opposite wangsamas hotel or petronas, tampin. That is the best kue tiaw here. Then, for our lunch, I want to take them ops they will take me as I am not good at driving. We will go to smz Thai steamboat and BBQ. It will be my first time to go there. Hopefully, we will find the place. My form three will sit for their pmr next week. All the best, especially to my 3 a. I like that class. They are not like other form three classes, I had taught before. They are more relaxed and cool. Some of the students were a bit poyo, yalah a class, the best class but this class is different. They are just kids who want to have fun and enjoy their lives. They were like me when i was a student at boarding school, friends and had fun were my priorities except five months before I sat for spm. That time, I needed to focus because spm was my future. Ya, I was angry when they did not listen to me ( a few of them did not understend English at all ) but they are good kids. Just pray the best for them.

happy birthday to me!

Hi! I am still at school, want to update my blog. Soooooooo busy. My dearest sister, kak chik has gone to mecca, performs her hajj. I hope she and her husband will be OK there. Allah will take care of them. I miss her. I will cry if i remember her. Now, I am crying. Good news, my mother in-law is trying to walk now. She could eat rice and other food except the hot and spicy ones. My father in-law, he is still cool. I cooked beef soup for him last week. I told him that he must eat good food for his recovery. He always smiled at me but sometimes he looked worried. He listened to my stories and sometimes he would laugh. I think he is worried about me. I try to make every one happy but frankly speaking, I am so tired. Today is my birthday, my 3a babies, especially jian and kai Yuan sang happy birthday song to me. Thank you, thank you and thank you. Then, my 5 science babies also sang that song. Some of the students wished me happy birthday and i got a few birthday presents. Thank you. My son told me that last night my husband went out to buy flowers for me but the shops were closed. Hiiiii......getting old. 43 years old ugh!

sorry.....

Hi! My father in-law had an accident. He has a blood clot in his head but the doctor didn't want him to go for a surgery. It is a bit only may be it can heal itself. I am just not sure of it. When my husband broke the bad news, I cried. I am closed to him. On our first hari raya, I made Soto for the guests. He felt pity because I worked so hard for it. After hari raya solat, he invited our imam to come to his house to taste my Soto. It was so embarrassing at first because I did not think my Soto tasted that good. Later, before the imam left, he looked at me and smiled. It was a big relief. My pegedil, chicken and seven packets of nasi himpit, all finished. My father in-law loves my chicken soup that he ate it until the next day. He is a very good man. Now, I have a big problem. My husband told me that we will move to kelantan one day. May be next year or another four years. All depend on the situation. He is worried about his parents. I don't think I want to follow him. I love my husband and i do understand his problem but i am scared. When i was in perak, I had been sihir by someone and some of them were not good to me. They could not accept an outsider who had more than them. Jealousy, it was terrible. I am so scared people will treat me the same way like in perak. Here, I have my parents, my siblings and my relatives. They are better than strangers. I will stay here with my son and try to be independence. He didn't like my idea. He still wants me to follow him anywhere he goes. I am still stick to my decision. It is still no...........

every day i love you

So happy today. My husband helped me a lot. We had an open house for our family. He was really my hero. He changed a lot since fasting month. He is really a gentleman. When we were in kelantan, Ahmad did not want to follow us going shopping or bazar ramadhan. So, he was roman tic, holding my hands protectively. It had been so many years. I always held my son's hand. So, this time, he held my hand. He helped me to carry things. I really don't know what had happened to him. Then, our open house, he was my great supporter. My mother did not come to our house this morning, so i cried. He asked me why. I told him that I didn't know how to measure the water for the rice. We had guests more than 30. I was terrified. So, he helped to cook rice for two rice cookers. And all because of him, my family praised all the food that i cooked today. The secret? I cooked with love. I love my husband so much and i love my big family. My brothers, sisters, nieces, nephews, busu, puan and of course my parents. Not forget to mention, riana, my grandchild. Ha! Ha! I am old. When i was taking my diploma of education, we had a microteaching in class. So, I became a teacher while my classmates, including my husband became my students. I was scared so, I just looked at my husband. At that time, we were not a couple yet. I knew he was restless. When i almost finished my teaching then I had the gut to look at all my friends and my lecturer. My husband never laughed at me. He understood my problem, stagephobia. Then, when we were teachers in the same school, I got my confidence. During the assembly, he would stand in front of me. So, whenever I felt nervous, I just looked at him. Now, I have no problem on speaking in front of people. He is great. We are different but i know he loves me so much. He knows I love my family especially my parents, so he treats them nicely and with respect. Oh my god, I really love him, love him and love him. Last night, he massaged my body especiaaly my back and my legs. He pitied me for working so hard. But look who's talking. He also helped me a lot, vacuumed and mopped our house. Folded the clothes and put them in the wardrobes. Helped me washing the dishes. I fall in love with my husband every day. He knows it because he is also like me, loves me as much as I love him or may be more?

love kelantan food

Hi! Cool a bit today but kelantan is so hot. About yesterday's article, I am just not satisfied with my two brothers. This morning we went to kota bharu to buy stuff for umrah. Then bought muruku, three packets only rm10, so cheap. My husband bought the same design of samping but this one was so cheap. He bought it at siti khadijah market. I had already cooked sweet sour chicken and mixed vegetables soup. This evening, we will go to bazar ramadhan to buy exotic food like tahi itik, yummee, yummmee and steamed boat. I love kelantan because of the food. I do respect the people. They have good taste. Tomorrow, I will prepare chicken pegedil and nasi himpit. Thursday morning, I will cook Soto. That is the main dish for the guests. Food, food and food........haiiii my husband is watching TV while my son is playing his PSP. Now, it's time for me to take a nap....oh ya the chocalate cake did look nice, it's like calling me........

have pity for your parents....love them

Hi! I am here in kelantan. We went to machang bazar ramadhan. Bought Perut air as am, kerabu Peru, Ikan percik, salok lad a, Colek, sotong pulut, daging gulai kawah. Crazy, really crazy....looking at all the food. I have already prepared every thing for my parents. Kuih ray a, baju raya and yesterday, I took myfather to see a barber. His hair need to be cut and so were the beard and the moustache. Oh ya my mother in law looks thin, she still has no appetite to eat rice or other food. Just eats her nestum and porridge. My father in law looks tired. I think they should take a maid but i don't think my husband's family like the idea. Tomorrow, I will help them to clean up their house. There's something I am not satisfied here. When you come to your parents' house. You know that they are not that well. Please bring your own towels and clean up the place especially the bedroom that you used. If you still want to use their towel make sure you wash it, not just leave it there. Hanging at the chair and the door. One more thing, please bring your food when you visit them. They don't have to cook or prepare food for you. They love their children's visit but please do not bully your parents. Don't just call your parents asking how are they doing. Ask them what do they want. Do they have enough rice, fish, vegetable or anything at home? If not, buy it for them. Like my parents, they have money to buy anything they want, the problem is who want to buy it for them. When you go to the market, buy food for your family, have you ever think of your parents. Don't just think oh someone else will buy it for them. And then, you just call and ask, emak sihat? Tak patut, tak patut. You have many children and one day your children will do that to you. Life is a full circle. I always open my heart and mind when I face this kind of situation. They should think better furthermore, I am the youngest in the family........

hu ha hu ha

Hi! People always say opposite attraction is good. My husband and i always have different view on something. Not only that, I am not sure whether I like some of his friends. His friends are not like mine. They are more serious and choosy. My friends are more carefree type. We are worried about our children, family or students but we are more relaxed. Easy to say the hu ha hu ha type. That's why I never go to my husband's family day. I know his type of friends but a few are good to me. I know that my husband and i are different but I always try to balance it. I will try to cover his weakness and protect him . It's tiring but I am happy to do it. When I was with his friends or family, I could not be myself. I had to be serious. I did ask him whether he wants a serious wife or me. His answer was me but for certain situations, I don't think he wants to be around with people like me. Sometimes, I prefer to talk with my students rather than my husband. They will listen to my story. Don't want to think too much of it. It will spoil my hari ray a mood. Ye lah, I slept with my maid when I was small. Then, i went to kampung school in pulau sebang, mixed with the kampung kids. When i was in boarding school. Again, most of my friends are kampung kids except jepun, Jana, zihan. But we enjoyed being together in one group. When we went out, we would go to a place that we could afford to pay and so did ordering food. We would order food like the ones that our friends ate. Then, here in this school, I met farain. I am very happy to have friend like her. Hiiii...should I change to be someone like my husband can be proud of?

Hi! It is holi, holidays. Syok. One big problem, coughing. Last night, I did not sleep in my bedroom. I didn't want to disturb my husband and son. It was bad. To day, after settling all the bills, I will ask my husband to take me to see Dr kok . I wanted to take MC today but lots of work to do at school. Did you watch 'sebenarnya says isteri dia'. I loved all 13 episodes. It's about a guy who had to marry a woman who was four years older than him. I started watching the drama from its 9 episode. My husband introduced it to me. I always watched kichen's rules so i knew nothing about the drama. When I saw my husband laughing watching the drama, well there must be something....I watched it and fell in love with the story. But when it came to 11 episode, he didn't want to watch anymore because it's not funny anymore. It's more to romance, no more arguing between both of them. So, my husband said, it's getting boring. I don't want to watch it anymore. Haiya. I watched all the episodes online. So good, no commercial break. Oh ya, during may school break, my husband went back to kelantan alone. He drove my crv. It's safer than his swift. He was scared that his mum would be admitted into a ward. So, he wanted to look after her at the hospital. Luckily, the doctor said that it was nothing only gastric and vein pain. So, she could go home. I was so happy that i bought two train tickets for me and my son. Haiiiii....again and again, when the time came, my nephew took both of us to the railway station. Then , someone told us that we could not go back to kelantan as there was a landslide in pahang. So, we got back our money and went to my parents ' house. When Ahmad was two years old, we faced the same problem. It was worse than this. I don't think I want to ride a train anymore. It's more dangerous but only to me. My husband was so worried that he went home early. Furthermore, his parents didn't want me to take another train ride. So sleepy, want to take a nap, bye......

Hi! One group of girls want to come to my house on the second week of holidays, still in the mood of raya. I am happy because that group is close to me. The problem is the boys also want to join them. Hiiiii...I never invite boys to come to my house. Before this, when they asked my address, I just kept quiet. So, they got the hint, oh tak bagi datang la tu. Hiiii never mind. I will just cook nasi ayam for them. Last time, when i stayed with my parents, hidayat and his group came to my parents' house. Ya lah datang nak beraya. Luckily, when he reached my parents' house, he called me first. I was in kelantan at that time. My sister and my brother in law saw the boys with their motobikes parking outside wision. They thought the boys were my nephew's friends. They did wonder why the boys just left like that. When I asked my sister about hidayat, she was shocked "ha, budak lelaki yang ramai-ramai datang dengan motor tu anak murid kau ke". It was so embarrassing. I was so glad that i was not around. I really-really hope that the boys change their mind and go somewhere. I asked the girls to come on Friday when my husband and son go to the mosque for jumaat prayer. It is more comfortable without guys around. Oh ya, today I have to start fasting. I don't want to fry catfish, ikan sembilang anymore. I've got scar on my hand, my eyelid and my mouth. It was painful but it is more painful when your husband just ignored you. He kept doing his work. I was so angry that I didn't want to talk to him or even look at his face. He felt guilty so, after praying terawih he went to shopping centre to buy a hari ray a card for me. A card with music. He put it on my dressing table. I showed the card to my son. He loved it. He knew that i was angry with his papa. When my son was sleeping, I went to my husband and said,' I don't want your card. I just want you to hug me.' He liked to buy me things when i was angry. He came to me and i showed him my hand. He kissed it, then I showed my eye. He kissed my eye and hugged me. I thanked him for the beautiful card and laughed happily. It is not that difficult to bring back my smile. Bye.....

baby girl

Hi! Sing lam and Wong helped me to put up pictures on the noticeboard. Well, not bad. Thanked to them. I taught sing lam when he was in remove class. When he was in form one, form two (I forget) , I did offer him and bin son to become librarians because they always helped me but they turned down my offer. But he is always a good boy to me only rough a bit. Wong, no comment. Hii...sometimes we have to be careful when choosing a friend. I had many friends before and i did miss them but I am afraid that i won't spend much time with my family and i don't know who are my true friends anymore. So, to be safe, my husband, my son and my parents are my friends. But at school, all the teachers are my friends especially farain. Hiiiiii...... lots of work this holidays. Need to renew my passport and clean up our house. Today, I 've got a new tenant. She will move in after the holidays. Oh ya, may be this December we will go to Istanbul first before performing our umrah. I really miss kaabah. I want to smell mecca. I miss the environment. Ahmad wants to pray to have a little brother. I wish I can have a baby girl. The specialist told me that I had no problem to get a baby. Hi......buy my baby a gown with ribbon, hairpin, I will buy her lots of dolls , I will become crazy thinking of the baby girl that I want.. I cannot say it in front of my husband. It will hurt him. Better take a nap. Bye!

Hi! Went to Jay a jusco last Friday. Bought new shoes with heels. My husband is shorter than me so, when i wore that shoes, he didn't want to walk with me. Sad, well no. He said that I looked so tall wearing those shoes. Sorry, honey I could not stop myself from buying them. Oh ya today sing lam and wong went to the library. Today was Wong's duty. I scolded both of them for beating Ephraim. One group of boys beat one form one boy, is that fair? I said lots of things. Not good words. I felt pity for Ephraim. He is my best student. He loves my subject. Last Tuesday, when he came late to my class, I hit him. Some students told me that he had a fight. I had told many times to my 1 a set 1, do not involve in any fightings. Do not become a gangster. There's nothing to be proud of. So, I was so angry with him. I did not ask him. I just accepted what they had told me earlier. No wonder he looked so sad when I hit him. But I wonder why nobody in his class supported him, except taufik. Ephraim learned his lesson to watch his mouth and i also learn my lesson to listen to both sides. Today, when i went to his class, he was so happy to show me his English paper. He was the only one who got a in the mid year exam. Not all teachers like him because of his attitude. He is good in my class, may be he likes this subject so, I have no problem with him so far. He is young and need our guidance. OK, I will try to find wolverine CD for the video show next time. Ephraim's hero, not mine. I don't like hairy man but he kept saying " you should find the CD teacher. It was so good. Wolverine bla.....bla......bla.." OK, I will try to find it during the holidays.

stay cool

Hi! I am at Suzuki service center. Really sleepy. Slept late last night. Watched Malay drama "qarina". That girl acted so well. She made me crying. Oh ya, school life this week, ugh...bad. fighting..fighting....fighting. I know they want to teach the victim but is it fighting the best solution? I don't like if someone beats my son, I will do anything to protect him. So, I know how his parents felt about this issue. I met Ephraim yesterday and i did advise him to think first before saying anything. Not everybody can accept what he said. Some people are very sensitive. They will use the wrong way to take revenge on him. He was cool. He just said that he was OK and tried to watch his mouth next time. Now, about the avengers. I will meet Wong next week for what he had done to Ephraim. Last time he told me that he still wanted to become a librarian but before I knew the truth. May be I will give him the last chance....siang lam, Khang, kai Yuan.....hiiiii no comment. Khai lun's group better than this one. We will celebrate hari ray a in kelantan. My mother in law is not well. She cannot walk anymore. So, I will help her to cook for the guests. May be, beef soup, chicken masak merah and sambal udang. My husband said...up to you. Ha!ha! Ha! So good. It's funny. I am the youngest one married to the eldest one in that family. So, what do you expect? Hantam lah. We will stay in kelantan for one week, then we need to clean up my house at taman clonlee...need to find a new tennant. Hope a good one like before. Take care..bye!

ramadhan......

Hi! What should I write today....oh ya lailatul qadar. I had it when i was 23 years old. I did write about my lailatul qadar night experience in my old blog. This morning when cikgu mazlan gave us tazkirah on lailatul qadar, my hands became so cold. I was still scared after 20 years. I didn't want to tell my experience to my friends. I am afraid they will laugh at me. It was a great feeling when you were chosen for that night. I was so scared but I still could perform my hajat prayer and read quran until suboh azan was heard. But until now I am still scared. This year no radio sekolah programme for the whole ramadhan. I went to surau to teach hidayatul and firzana to read quran. I did not perform terawih because I need to teach my son for his homework. Need to prepare food for pre-dawn meal and other chores. I encourage my husband to perform his terawih prayer at the mosque. I just want to feel the spirit of ramadhan. Today, when I wanted to take bubur lambuk, one staff asked me whether I was a Muslim or not. Luckily, ustaz answered for me, she is Islam. I felt hurt a bit. I always spoke English at school, mixed with other races, Chinese, Indians, I don't mind but I still have faith on my god. I love Allah, I love my prophet Muhammad. It was sad. Thanks ustaz. Oh ya today, I gave some money to taufik, an Indian Muslim student. I asked him about his baju ray a. He just kept quiet. He tried to smile but I could see tears in his eyes. Asked him not to tell his friends about the money. He must give it to his father. Have a few persons in my mind. Later before the school holidays. I just want them to feel happy. I have my period today, hey so good to eat my bubur lambuk at home. Encik zul's bubur lambuk........memang terbaik.

kebaya oh kebaya

So sleepy but needs to wait for my beef soup. Oh ya. Yesterday mr tan told me something about chong. When he mentions that name, I looked a bit confused. It has been so long, I did not hear this name. Not that I forgot this boy , but it has been so long. He told me bla, bla,bla. Mr Foo joined us. I was not sure whether he knew this boy but we laughed together. I cannot get angry with him, I don't know why. I just wish he could further his study. He was too young to work. But I know this boy, study is in the last list. He must know how to work smartly. He just needs to focus on his work. He still has his imbalanced life so i don't think he will do that well in his work. But, who am I to advise him. OK now back to my life. Last Friday, we went to hotel seri Malaysia to break our fast. Soooooo good. We ate a lot. Now, I ate faster than my husband. He was always the champion and i would be the last one. But during ramadhan, I beat him. Why? I just want to finish my food so, I can finish my drink (water melon juice). When i break my fast, I just drink a bit. I love this year's ramadhan. My husband said I can wear kebaya nyonya this year ( our guests will be my family only, my sister's request) but on one condition, I must have a flat tummy. Aaaaà.....he will pay for the kebaya but how, how , howwwwwww. I am not fat but...no comment. Hate my tummy !

i am back

Hi! I am back. Sorry for not updating my blog for so long. For the past few months, I had family problem. It was so bad. I cried at school. My choral speaking team saw me crying. I couldn't focus so for the result........we lost. Miss tan, pn faridah, even my mother did not believe that my team lost. I was not happy. But, now every thing is back to normal. I got my family back. Haiiii.....this is not because of my husband. This is all about my son. He was so rebellious that he always had a fight with his papa. I was torn between the two persons that i love most. Luckily, my son did listen to me. He was so scared that I would leave him. Now, he loves both of us. He follows the timetable that i set for him. He must finish his homework then he can play with his ultraman warriors and the monsters. He has a collection of ultraman. Mebius, Max, brothers, blue , red, two horns, one horn. He is really crazy about ultraman. He even told me that he wanted to become a fireman one day. Why? When he had problem, he just turned into ultraman. So easy. Hi......I really love my son. Good news, last fortnight during the kem membaca programme, my school won a lot of prizes. We beat tbs, syed idrus and agama repah. Yes, yes and yes. I was so proud of them. Yusah's team, rudrapreya, Chia Sean, amir yusof......all of them were the heroes. The most important is I got back my focus. Lots of work but I manage to do all because of focusing. Oh ya, I have changed now. I love cooking. I cooked for my family's break fast and predawn meal. Sometimes, I did follow my husband to bazar ramadhan to buy my favourite laksam and karamel dessert. Just cut my hair yesterday. Seatly, that nyonya missed me a lot. I had to tie up my hair before this. Looked like Mafia. At last, I have grown up. Too late right but it is not too late to change. My husband and my parents still pamper me. Now, my son. He will become a gentleman one day. Well, it is time to cook my squid sambal and masak kicap ikan tenggiri. Bye.....

love yourself

Hi! I am so worried about Lisa. She came to our school yesterday and i did not notice her at first. She was so slim and i do not like it at all. She looked so different. I preferred her last year look. She looked fit and sexy. Hiiiii......she told me that she was on a diet. What kind of diet was it. She did not like her look before. She thought the slimmer, the prettier. Hiiiii.........my husband did ask to eat less, all because of my tummy. I don't give a damn. I still feel good and i love the way I look except when I did not have enough sleep. I looked like a zombie. My mum said that I look better even my husband praised of my look only my tummy. He likes to make joke of my tummy but I feel OK. My problem is the tummy will look big at night but in the morning it will become flat. And of course after having breakfast, lunch and dinner it will become big again. Every morning I will have a heavy meal. Must eat rice. Please do not ruin yourself all because you want to look good. I think a big woman is cute. My eldest sister is big and a few of my nieces are big too. They are cute and pretty especially when they put on tudung. Their round face look so cute when wearing tudung. They take after my mother and my great grandfather. I am the combination of my parents. My height from my mother and thanks to my father for my slim body.special one is about my hair. Straight like my mum but curly, the front part like my father's. The bad temper from my father but the kind hearted from my mother. So good being the youngest one. You took every thing from your parents. Good advice. Love yourself, people will say bad about your look. Who cares. Our health is more important. Be happy and laugh a lot, you will look good. Take care.

seize the day

Hi! Miss my blog so much. No mood. Family problem. Don't know how to eplain it. Too complicated. I nearly set my mind to leave everything here and go somewhere. My mom was so worried about my problem that she had chestpained. Actually,I did not want to tell her but I was so sad I needed someone to share it. Now,everything is OK. We are happier than before. There's no more secret among us. I really love my family. I don't want to lose it. Everything is back to normal just like nothing had happened before. Well, that is life. I never expect to have this kind of problem in my life. When I was young I thought my life was so perfect compare to my friends. Got problem but it's not like this one. I had to be strong to face it. Luckily, it was all gone now. Oh ya, about my 3 a. I love that class. They are naughty but I think they are more sincere. Now, their result is OK. 10 students got b compare to 2 in their last test and only 7 students fail compare to 20 last time. Still, a few of them did ask me, why there was no a. Well, that depends on their effort. If they work harder, I am very sure 5 students can get a in pmr.....at least. Who knows. My choral speaking team....not bad. Just hope they will win. If only we can beat tbs. This is the best team. They are like lions roaring. They made me smile today. They gave me brilliant ideas to make the performance better. Wow.....work together to achieve our goal. Well.....I went to see a movie, jack the giant slayer. Couldn't help myself. I think it was OK because all of us wanted to see the movie, so we wouldn't do nothing bad. This Monday we will see bola kampung the movie. Then, Tuesday haiiiiiii choral speaking practice. Never mind. I still can enjoy myself. Bye!

say no to free sex

Hey! Now, I am in the mood to talk about love. We don't have to sacrifice our body to proof our love to the guys. Love is so beautiful and pure. If you love that guy, you won't do something that will hurt him. You will try to make him happy. You will care for him and worry about his safety. You always think of him. I don't understand why women or girls so cheap to allow men to touch their body. They said it is because of love. That's not love, idiot. That is what we call lust or nafsu in b. Melayu. I think to find virgins among Malay ladies are difficult nowadays. Imam's daughter, a 13 year old girl, university students, kampung girls, all are same. Their parents taught them the limit between boys and girls. They also learned it at school. But why? There was one case, when the couple was caught in a hotel room. The guy told the officer, they did nothing wrong because the girl was his fiancée. Hello stupid! Only when the girl has become your wife legally then, you can touch her. Another case, when a young girl was found pregnant, the mother scolded her by saying the guy should use condom. See! Modern mum, modern life, modern thinking have changed our way of life. So sad. They don't know the meaning of love anymore. If the guy loves the lady, he must proof that he is the real gentleman. Ready to show his responsibility to the woman that he loves, will give her shelter, will give her protection. Show your claim that she is your woman by marrying her not by getting her free of charge. It means prostitute is better than your girlfriend because you have to pay that bitch to have sex with her. Sorry, but that is the truth. Think about it OK.

sayang, honey, sweetheart or love........samalah tu

Hi! I really like this song. The music is so simple but her voice is so energetic. That's the strength of this song. I love the lyric too. Here's the lyric of sayang by shae. Sayang apa khabar denganmu. Di siniku merindukan kamu. Kuharap cintamu takkan berubah. Kern a di siniku tetap untuk mu. Sayang a pa khabar denganmu. Cubalah kamu telefon diriku. Kurindu dengar Sara indahmu. Kern a dirimu semangat hidupku. Sayang dengarlah permintaanku. Jan an ragukan cintaku. Sayang percayalah a pa kataku. Kernaku sayang kamu. Sayang dengarlah permintaanku. Jaga hatiku untukmu. Sayang dengarlah bisikan hatiku. Kernaku sayang kamu. I fell in love with this song when I heard it for the first time. Now, it has become so popular even my students, the malay boys like to sing it. Oh ya, there's nothing special to write as my husband told me already no Valentine's day celebration yesterday. I know that we cannot celebrate it as Muslims but.........never mind. Love all of you. Take care. Bye.

calm down.....take a deep breath.

Hi! I had a bad day yesterday. First, my son's pk hem called me in the morning. He wanted to see me today. Second, I typed my work wrongly. Third, my car hit my father's wheelbarrow. Fourth, mazita's student wrote the word cilakak on the libraray's whiteboard. I went out to fetch my son while they had nilam programme in the library. The worst was, he used permanent markerpen. Fifth, I had diarrhoea while teaching 3 a, had to rush to the toilet. Lastly, my hand got a long scratch while cleaning up the whiteboard. I was so angry yesterday and i am very sure Allah didn't like it. It was a punishment. Last year I was so angry to a lady who sold supplement to my father. He got sick after eating it. I was so angry that i scolded her. The next day, my son played outside. He got fever because of the hot weather. I couldn't blame god for that and i couldn't get angry with god. I must control my anger. I don't want Allah to hate me. Last week while watering my grass, I prayed to Allah to give us rains. I really pitied my yellowish grass. Then, Allah fulfilled my wish. Then, my laser programme last Wednesday. I prayed to Allah not to have rain that morning. I did not want to postpone it because I had prepared all the ingredients. Thanks to Allah, there was no rain and my 1 A boys could teach the students on how to make an egg sandwich. Oh ya! I did not watch Hansel and Gretel last week. I don't think I want to see movies anymore. I just bought pirated DVDs. I don't want to die in that kind of place. Oh ya happy holidays to all teachers and students. YAHOO!

a tongue slip

Hi! My son had a fight at his school. He and a few boys had to wash dishes at the canteen as a punishment. I asked cikgu hamzah for his wife's phone number. She is my son's disciplinary teacher. Mr vik just said, "he is like you. Love fighting" . Well, I just fight for the right thing. If the administrators give ideas that i cannot accept or I think ridiculous, of course I will fight. Just voice it. But my son......now about 3 a. I have tried to like that class but I can't. I have to love the students or at least like them, then they will get good results. That jian said that I am the best. I looked at him and said " you are the worst" . I feel bad. I do like some of them. Yap sun Wei, rinisha, mahalaxmy, vimal, pragash, nikman, aqilah, shazwan, see, oi sun Wei, agilan, wahab and najmi. I should change. I don't want to become incredible hulk in that class anymore. Must like all of them. God, please help me! Forget about all this. Tomorrow, my husband will take me to see a movie" Hansel and Gretel" yes! This Wednesday, we will have a video show at the library. It's marvel's avengers. The ticket is 50 cents only. May gee is trying her best to sell all the tickets. She is very helpful. Oh ya Chu a may gee is our pss club president. I know someone is not happy but she has changed. I don't care what people say about her. Today, Chan came to see me. He said something about Chua. I told him that i will talk to her about it and i am very sure she will listen to me. Now, Chan the prefect will see me first before he takes action on that person. I don't know why but I don't like it at all. He should relax a bit. Always try to find somebody's fault. Nobody is perfect, including him. About tongue slip. I said the wrong word during teaching Aids competition last year. We had it at bilk gerakan and i was the MC. It was Mr foo's turn to present his teaching aids. The title was permainan set. Before him, the presenters were all ladies so he was the first guy to present. I was so excited that when i introduced him I said the wrong words, Mr Foo Dan permainan sek. All the teachers were so shocked that they stopped clapping and looked at each other. I sat down and asked rosna, " aku salah cakap ke?" Slowly, she said, " awak cakap permainan sek" . It was so embarrassing. Later, I asked farain to know what did the teachers say about it. The teachers were shocked at first but then they said," takkan Lela cakap sek, kita salah dengar tak". Fuhhhhhh....what a relief!

ops, he is younger than me

Hi! Waiting for my car to be serviced. My son is playing his PSP while my husband is looking at Honda cars outside. I like my car but I feel more comfortable driving husband's car, Suzuki swift. Everything is easy and smooth with his car. I begged my husband to let me drive his car at least once a week. I think all the ladies out there agree with me. Even my student, rudrapreya told me that she will buy this kind of car one day. Oh ya today's topic........old ladies vs young man. Well...my eldest brother's wife is older than him, jepun's husband is younger than her........I think it is OK but not to me. I don't know I just feel weird. My first experience was when I was on the way to kl. Had to take a bus and I was alone. I sat next to a Chinese boy. He was so tall. Quite a friendly boy. He talked about his college and I told him about my life at university. I looked at him and said this boy can be my boyfriend. Oh ya, he was a basketball player. Then, the sad story came out when i told him that I studied at tbs when I was in lower six. He asked me what year....I said 1988. And he was so happy to tell me that he was in form two. Straightaway, I stopped talking and looked away. He came close to me, our shoulders touched and he looked at the mirror in front of us and said," tapi kalau orang tengok, nampak umur sama aje." Oh ya, that boy spoke b.melayu fluently. Then, the bus stopped. Really like a gentleman, he let me walk first and he followed me. After that we walked together. He kept talking and I kept quiet. In my mind, how to get rid of this boy and i succeeded. Thanks to the traffic light. I still remembered his face when i turned around. He was shocked because I just left without saying good bye. When I told my friends about him, all of them were so angry. I told them that i had my boyfriend already in UKm so i don't want to create problem. Hiiii....that night I could not sleep, thinking of that boy. There was a regret but..nak buek camno. Then, the same problem at my first school in kl. I was a teacher there. That boy was 16 years old. I taught him ekonomi asas. He was so good lending me his books. Rich boy, I guess. I never asked. He did send me a song request but I did not hear. Then, one day he told me that he wanted to come to my house. He wanted to take me to melaka. I looked at him and said that I was getting engaged on that day. He was so shocked and looked angry. I still taught him when he was in form 5. Haiiii....that boy. All his friends came to my wedding except him. If i was not engaged also, I would not accept him. Why? Simple, he was younger than me!

bye! bye!

Hi! Quite OK today. We had dinner outside. Not bad. Today is mahyudin's last day at school. He will study at boarding school next week. I will miss that boy. He is like my son. If i did not have a miscarriage, I would have a child that same age with him. A very good boy. He always laughed when i made jokes. Well, he is not my son. He came to see me at the library today, I just gave him advice. I really hope nothing bad will happen to him at the hostel. I told his mother why I did not like mahyudin to study there but .........he just needs to be careful with the seniors. Oh ya, I got presents from syuhadah and farzana. Thank you very much. Syuhadah has already started her studies at technique school while farzana, same with mahyudin, will go to a boarding school next week. Sad....sad......and sad. They won't join my choral speaking this year. No naim, no marzuki......anyway I have form one students who are very active. Ephraim, ulul azmi, Yong kah kit, ikhwan, Daniel to ( Brian's brother, miss tan said his face looks like me, well I like it. That boy is cute). I really enjoyed my 1a class. I have no pressure teaching them. Thanks to PBS. That's why the class was noisy. We had fun activities. Not like my 3 a. I have to be serious teaching them. They are the last batch sitting for pmr. I am so scared that they will higher the grade like last year. My aim last year was 15 students would get a for their English paper but only ten managed to get A. This year.....mati la. I took over Mr tan's class. I don't mind if the students are weak but they have to change. They are not focusing, very slow and the worse part is they love talking. They are like man stranded in the woods, didn't know where to go and started talking to himself. I feel pity to them because I know their level. The problem is they think they are smart because they are in A class. Hiiii.......enough with the school story. Want to sleep early tonight. Good night......

grrrr.......

Hate this week. He came to meet me yesterday and said that starting next year I won't be guru media anymore. It is good news but I don't like his reason. Tell you the truth, whenever I met him this year i just said important things. If not I just kept quiet. He did go to the library but I just did my work and kept quiet. After he told me his decision, he went to the library, I still kept quiet. He did try to provoke me but I said one sentence and both of us went quiet. Now,about fetching my son, I got permission from the principal. What my husband said about my boss is true. He is so kind. My only problem is that man. My face is so transparent, if i feel to smile I will smile. It cannot be forced. Actually, I don't like his attitude. He is arrogant. I told Mr tan that next year I won't be guru media anymore. He just said that you go to his room, smile and laugh then he will change his mind. No way. The real story is I was so angry yesterday that I did sidekick in the library. Luckily, no students saw what I did. Miss chua was shocked but then she laughed. Since 2011 I want Chu a or faraheya to replace me so I can focus on my critical subject. Kak faridah did discuss with him but he still wanted me to hold this post. Then yesterday, he changed his mind. His communication skill was so bad. I told my husband and he said good. Ya the news is good but the way that man said it...........never mind I just do my work and god knows it. Oh ya I want to see journey to the west movie. My husband said yes but Ahmad, I am not sure. I am afraid he will get bored. I watched the drama series already. I forgot the year. I like the colorful characters. So many and the adventure. Another movie, hantu kak limah part 2, this February. I can't wait to see it. Impossible movie, I can't watch but I know the story is superb. Bye...

hey! take it easy

Hi! Change my spectacles all because of my long-sighted. Getting old......but I like my new look. Oh ya...last Wednesday, Steven came to express his dissatisfaction of Wong. He asked me why I chose that boy to become a librarian. He said that the boy was caught smoking when he was a prefect and was it because that boy is handsome. Haiiiii...that boy volunteered to become a librarian last year. He showed me his talent by processing many new books after pmr. I was impressed so i gave him one year trial. It was not fair if i did not give him the chance, not because he is handsome. I am too old to think like that. I asked Wong to see me, later I found out that Steven had made a mistake. Still, I asked Wong to control his temper. Then Steven came to see me and I did advise him. I did not like his style. He reminded me of the prefects at my former boarding school. They just aimed at the naughty students although other students did make the same mistake. Just wrote my name and my group, almost every week we had to go for a detention class. So bad, right. I told Steven my experience. I said that I was naughty but now I have changed. I asked him to be fair to all students. He must respect people then they will respect him. I asked him to see cikgu mazlan to clear that boy's name. OK, settle. Now , different topic. How to have a happy life? My students asked me about love. Well, love is important but make sure your husband must love you more than you do. If you marry a person that loves you less, your life will be miserable. You will do whatever he wants you to do and you will follow what he asks as you love him more. I always call my husband my fairy godmother because he always granted my wishes. He really pampers me that's why I felt like I was a small child sometimes. Only with our son, he's a bit strict. But do not take advantage. The one that my husband cannot afford, I will never ask. Falling in love is beautiful but to have someone who loves you dearly is paradise. I forgot to tell you that my husband bought me a Nikon camera to replace my broken camera. He dropped it at universal studio. The camera is too expensive compare to my old camera that i did not dare to try it. Haiii....better buy the cheap one for me. Still I appreciate for what he had done.....toche!