ramadhan......

Hi! What should I write today....oh ya lailatul qadar. I had it when i was 23 years old. I did write about my lailatul qadar night experience in my old blog. This morning when cikgu mazlan gave us tazkirah on lailatul qadar, my hands became so cold. I was still scared after 20 years. I didn't want to tell my experience to my friends. I am afraid they will laugh at me. It was a great feeling when you were chosen for that night. I was so scared but I still could perform my hajat prayer and read quran until suboh azan was heard. But until now I am still scared. This year no radio sekolah programme for the whole ramadhan. I went to surau to teach hidayatul and firzana to read quran. I did not perform terawih because I need to teach my son for his homework. Need to prepare food for pre-dawn meal and other chores. I encourage my husband to perform his terawih prayer at the mosque. I just want to feel the spirit of ramadhan. Today, when I wanted to take bubur lambuk, one staff asked me whether I was a Muslim or not. Luckily, ustaz answered for me, she is Islam. I felt hurt a bit. I always spoke English at school, mixed with other races, Chinese, Indians, I don't mind but I still have faith on my god. I love Allah, I love my prophet Muhammad. It was sad. Thanks ustaz. Oh ya today, I gave some money to taufik, an Indian Muslim student. I asked him about his baju ray a. He just kept quiet. He tried to smile but I could see tears in his eyes. Asked him not to tell his friends about the money. He must give it to his father. Have a few persons in my mind. Later before the school holidays. I just want them to feel happy. I have my period today, hey so good to eat my bubur lambuk at home. Encik zul's bubur lambuk........memang terbaik.