Hi! One group of girls want to come to my house on the second week of holidays, still in the mood of raya. I am happy because that group is close to me. The problem is the boys also want to join them. Hiiiii...I never invite boys to come to my house. Before this, when they asked my address, I just kept quiet. So, they got the hint, oh tak bagi datang la tu. Hiiii never mind. I will just cook nasi ayam for them. Last time, when i stayed with my parents, hidayat and his group came to my parents' house. Ya lah datang nak beraya. Luckily, when he reached my parents' house, he called me first. I was in kelantan at that time. My sister and my brother in law saw the boys with their motobikes parking outside wision. They thought the boys were my nephew's friends. They did wonder why the boys just left like that. When I asked my sister about hidayat, she was shocked "ha, budak lelaki yang ramai-ramai datang dengan motor tu anak murid kau ke". It was so embarrassing. I was so glad that i was not around. I really-really hope that the boys change their mind and go somewhere. I asked the girls to come on Friday when my husband and son go to the mosque for jumaat prayer. It is more comfortable without guys around. Oh ya, today I have to start fasting. I don't want to fry catfish, ikan sembilang anymore. I've got scar on my hand, my eyelid and my mouth. It was painful but it is more painful when your husband just ignored you. He kept doing his work. I was so angry that I didn't want to talk to him or even look at his face. He felt guilty so, after praying terawih he went to shopping centre to buy a hari ray a card for me. A card with music. He put it on my dressing table. I showed the card to my son. He loved it. He knew that i was angry with his papa. When my son was sleeping, I went to my husband and said,' I don't want your card. I just want you to hug me.' He liked to buy me things when i was angry. He came to me and i showed him my hand. He kissed it, then I showed my eye. He kissed my eye and hugged me. I thanked him for the beautiful card and laughed happily. It is not that difficult to bring back my smile. Bye.....

baby girl

Hi! Sing lam and Wong helped me to put up pictures on the noticeboard. Well, not bad. Thanked to them. I taught sing lam when he was in remove class. When he was in form one, form two (I forget) , I did offer him and bin son to become librarians because they always helped me but they turned down my offer. But he is always a good boy to me only rough a bit. Wong, no comment. Hii...sometimes we have to be careful when choosing a friend. I had many friends before and i did miss them but I am afraid that i won't spend much time with my family and i don't know who are my true friends anymore. So, to be safe, my husband, my son and my parents are my friends. But at school, all the teachers are my friends especially farain. Hiiiiii...... lots of work this holidays. Need to renew my passport and clean up our house. Today, I 've got a new tenant. She will move in after the holidays. Oh ya, may be this December we will go to Istanbul first before performing our umrah. I really miss kaabah. I want to smell mecca. I miss the environment. Ahmad wants to pray to have a little brother. I wish I can have a baby girl. The specialist told me that I had no problem to get a baby. Hi......buy my baby a gown with ribbon, hairpin, I will buy her lots of dolls , I will become crazy thinking of the baby girl that I want.. I cannot say it in front of my husband. It will hurt him. Better take a nap. Bye!

Hi! Went to Jay a jusco last Friday. Bought new shoes with heels. My husband is shorter than me so, when i wore that shoes, he didn't want to walk with me. Sad, well no. He said that I looked so tall wearing those shoes. Sorry, honey I could not stop myself from buying them. Oh ya today sing lam and wong went to the library. Today was Wong's duty. I scolded both of them for beating Ephraim. One group of boys beat one form one boy, is that fair? I said lots of things. Not good words. I felt pity for Ephraim. He is my best student. He loves my subject. Last Tuesday, when he came late to my class, I hit him. Some students told me that he had a fight. I had told many times to my 1 a set 1, do not involve in any fightings. Do not become a gangster. There's nothing to be proud of. So, I was so angry with him. I did not ask him. I just accepted what they had told me earlier. No wonder he looked so sad when I hit him. But I wonder why nobody in his class supported him, except taufik. Ephraim learned his lesson to watch his mouth and i also learn my lesson to listen to both sides. Today, when i went to his class, he was so happy to show me his English paper. He was the only one who got a in the mid year exam. Not all teachers like him because of his attitude. He is good in my class, may be he likes this subject so, I have no problem with him so far. He is young and need our guidance. OK, I will try to find wolverine CD for the video show next time. Ephraim's hero, not mine. I don't like hairy man but he kept saying " you should find the CD teacher. It was so good. Wolverine bla.....bla......bla.." OK, I will try to find it during the holidays.

stay cool

Hi! I am at Suzuki service center. Really sleepy. Slept late last night. Watched Malay drama "qarina". That girl acted so well. She made me crying. Oh ya, school life this week, ugh...bad. fighting..fighting....fighting. I know they want to teach the victim but is it fighting the best solution? I don't like if someone beats my son, I will do anything to protect him. So, I know how his parents felt about this issue. I met Ephraim yesterday and i did advise him to think first before saying anything. Not everybody can accept what he said. Some people are very sensitive. They will use the wrong way to take revenge on him. He was cool. He just said that he was OK and tried to watch his mouth next time. Now, about the avengers. I will meet Wong next week for what he had done to Ephraim. Last time he told me that he still wanted to become a librarian but before I knew the truth. May be I will give him the last chance....siang lam, Khang, kai Yuan.....hiiiii no comment. Khai lun's group better than this one. We will celebrate hari ray a in kelantan. My mother in law is not well. She cannot walk anymore. So, I will help her to cook for the guests. May be, beef soup, chicken masak merah and sambal udang. My husband said...up to you. Ha!ha! Ha! So good. It's funny. I am the youngest one married to the eldest one in that family. So, what do you expect? Hantam lah. We will stay in kelantan for one week, then we need to clean up my house at taman clonlee...need to find a new tennant. Hope a good one like before. Take care..bye!

ramadhan......

Hi! What should I write today....oh ya lailatul qadar. I had it when i was 23 years old. I did write about my lailatul qadar night experience in my old blog. This morning when cikgu mazlan gave us tazkirah on lailatul qadar, my hands became so cold. I was still scared after 20 years. I didn't want to tell my experience to my friends. I am afraid they will laugh at me. It was a great feeling when you were chosen for that night. I was so scared but I still could perform my hajat prayer and read quran until suboh azan was heard. But until now I am still scared. This year no radio sekolah programme for the whole ramadhan. I went to surau to teach hidayatul and firzana to read quran. I did not perform terawih because I need to teach my son for his homework. Need to prepare food for pre-dawn meal and other chores. I encourage my husband to perform his terawih prayer at the mosque. I just want to feel the spirit of ramadhan. Today, when I wanted to take bubur lambuk, one staff asked me whether I was a Muslim or not. Luckily, ustaz answered for me, she is Islam. I felt hurt a bit. I always spoke English at school, mixed with other races, Chinese, Indians, I don't mind but I still have faith on my god. I love Allah, I love my prophet Muhammad. It was sad. Thanks ustaz. Oh ya today, I gave some money to taufik, an Indian Muslim student. I asked him about his baju ray a. He just kept quiet. He tried to smile but I could see tears in his eyes. Asked him not to tell his friends about the money. He must give it to his father. Have a few persons in my mind. Later before the school holidays. I just want them to feel happy. I have my period today, hey so good to eat my bubur lambuk at home. Encik zul's bubur lambuk........memang terbaik.

kebaya oh kebaya

So sleepy but needs to wait for my beef soup. Oh ya. Yesterday mr tan told me something about chong. When he mentions that name, I looked a bit confused. It has been so long, I did not hear this name. Not that I forgot this boy , but it has been so long. He told me bla, bla,bla. Mr Foo joined us. I was not sure whether he knew this boy but we laughed together. I cannot get angry with him, I don't know why. I just wish he could further his study. He was too young to work. But I know this boy, study is in the last list. He must know how to work smartly. He just needs to focus on his work. He still has his imbalanced life so i don't think he will do that well in his work. But, who am I to advise him. OK now back to my life. Last Friday, we went to hotel seri Malaysia to break our fast. Soooooo good. We ate a lot. Now, I ate faster than my husband. He was always the champion and i would be the last one. But during ramadhan, I beat him. Why? I just want to finish my food so, I can finish my drink (water melon juice). When i break my fast, I just drink a bit. I love this year's ramadhan. My husband said I can wear kebaya nyonya this year ( our guests will be my family only, my sister's request) but on one condition, I must have a flat tummy. Aaaaà.....he will pay for the kebaya but how, how , howwwwwww. I am not fat but...no comment. Hate my tummy !

i am back

Hi! I am back. Sorry for not updating my blog for so long. For the past few months, I had family problem. It was so bad. I cried at school. My choral speaking team saw me crying. I couldn't focus so for the result........we lost. Miss tan, pn faridah, even my mother did not believe that my team lost. I was not happy. But, now every thing is back to normal. I got my family back. Haiiii.....this is not because of my husband. This is all about my son. He was so rebellious that he always had a fight with his papa. I was torn between the two persons that i love most. Luckily, my son did listen to me. He was so scared that I would leave him. Now, he loves both of us. He follows the timetable that i set for him. He must finish his homework then he can play with his ultraman warriors and the monsters. He has a collection of ultraman. Mebius, Max, brothers, blue , red, two horns, one horn. He is really crazy about ultraman. He even told me that he wanted to become a fireman one day. Why? When he had problem, he just turned into ultraman. So easy. Hi......I really love my son. Good news, last fortnight during the kem membaca programme, my school won a lot of prizes. We beat tbs, syed idrus and agama repah. Yes, yes and yes. I was so proud of them. Yusah's team, rudrapreya, Chia Sean, amir yusof......all of them were the heroes. The most important is I got back my focus. Lots of work but I manage to do all because of focusing. Oh ya, I have changed now. I love cooking. I cooked for my family's break fast and predawn meal. Sometimes, I did follow my husband to bazar ramadhan to buy my favourite laksam and karamel dessert. Just cut my hair yesterday. Seatly, that nyonya missed me a lot. I had to tie up my hair before this. Looked like Mafia. At last, I have grown up. Too late right but it is not too late to change. My husband and my parents still pamper me. Now, my son. He will become a gentleman one day. Well, it is time to cook my squid sambal and masak kicap ikan tenggiri. Bye.....