sad, happy...this is life

Hi! Stay at home with my son today. Just finished teaching him maths and English. I just took one hour. After dinner, i will teach him maths and bm. He will start his maths tuition after the school break. Now he is quite OK. I still let him play his PSP or watch his ultraman and Ben 10 videos but he must study first. Oh ya I really . enjoyed my holidays this time, although we just spent most of our time in Malacca. I love eating and there are a few places I would like to recommend, an open air restaurant near the river view hotel in kota bharu, kelantan. The chicken or beef grilled was so good. And the soup. Yummee, yummee, yummee. I won't forget nasi lemak burung puyuh in tanah merah, kelantan. It is located at the green building. And Malacca, my birthplace. I love Seoul garden and chickenrice shop at mahkota parade. Other favourite places are malim ikan bakar and umbai. Oh ya, we tried to eat less food at night. Breakfast and lunch are very important. Do not skip them. We just skip tea time. We will have early dinner around 7 o'clock. Before sleeping, my son and I had our nespray milk. If we feel hungry, we just eat the bananas that my husband bought a lot. That's it. My only supplement is the seaweed. I think my skin is quite OK now. So, I cancelled my facial treatment this month. Vivian won't like itèbut the seaweed is so cheap compare to the treatment. Last Saturday my cousins came to tampin. They brought anyah's clothes. They said if my mom does not like them just gave them to someone else. I looked at the clothes and saw the one that anyah liked to wear, the white polka dots baju kurung. I told my mom to keep her clothes first. It is not nice to give them away. I just do not understand. When my husband was sent for a course, I would sleep with his sarong. I wouldn't wash the one than he just wore so I still could still smell him. And his pink blanket. He didn't like the colour but because I chose the green blanket first, so he had no choice. I love smelling his blanket when he was not around. Now, I am crying. I really miss my husband. I can't wait to see him . That's why I do not understand why they wanted to clear up her things so fast. May god bless her soul. Al fatehah!

Hi! My husband will start his meeting tomorrow. We will be busy. Pity my son. I will try to spend my time teaching him at night. I know I will be very tired but he is my son. I will do anything to help him. Haiiii... they just reach home and we are going out....shopping and eating. Bye

show your love before you lose her forever

Anyah passed away today. Everybody was sad. Emak and puan cried. I cried when I heard the news. Then I was OK. I think god loves her more that's why her life was taken. She was in pain and restless when we met her yesterday. Now she is gone. No more anyah in our life. A few days ago, I cried after I performed my prayer. Suddenly, I remembered my late cousins, my grandmothers and grandfathers. Then I realised I have lost many people that i loved. Jureimi, kak long ina, Irwin, puan mok, atuk aman, puan dan datuk batun, chik and now anyah. It's sad. When i went back to kelantan, we always went to ayah bas' house to visit chik, now no more. Jureimi and Irwin were like my younger brothers. They died in their early twenties, along ina in her early thirties. She was the first one in our family to study oversea. And because of her, I went to the airport for the first time. My mother was so proud of her that she wanted rme to follow her step. When i lost them, it's like someone stabbed in your heart. Please appreciate people around you especially your family. When the person dies, he or she won't come back. She won't visit us anymore. She's just gone. Last time, when anyah came to tampin, I kissed her forehead . When I put some money in her hand , she said thank you. Yesterday, before we left her son's house, I kissed her forehead twice. My mother also kissed her but she did not say anything. She just looked at us. Every time she felt the pain she would raise her hands and I caught them. I held her shaking hands firmly. I rubbed her forehead and kept calling her name, anyah. Tell you the truth,I am so happy today because I met her yesterday and showed my love to her before she passed away. Thank you god and may Allah bless her soul. Amin.

love anyah

Hi! If i updated my blog yesterday, it would be the happy one. I really enjoyed myself until last night when I found out my anyah (my mother's sister) is sick, I mean really-really sick. She has liver cancer. We went to kelana jaya today. She's just lying on the bed. I kept holding her hand. I knew she was in pain. She did not call my name or my mother's. I was not sure whether she still recognised us or not. When my mother cried for her sister, I felt helpless. I did not know on how to ease her pain. Her cancer is in stage four. There's something I would like to say. When we visit sick people, please do not expect that the family will serve us enough food. Especially, many guests will come to visit . Like today, I think when they served us bihun and tea, they were more than enough. For the lunch, my husband and I preferred to have it somewhere, just don't want to burden the family. Our intention is to visit the sick one. That's the main point. I am so happy my son and my mother understood our intention. I knew they were hungry but they could wait. So, we had our lunch at r n r highway around three o'clock. Oh ya, one more thing . When you pay a visit, give something to the family, money, fruits or whatever. Don't ever-ever think when you donate some money, you will become poor. Be sincere. God knows your good deed. You will get more than you give. Bye.....

holidays

Hi! My son was circumcised last Sunday. He is OK now. He can wear his shorts but I still do not allow him to eat certain food like egg and chicken. My parents came to visit him, so did my two sisters and their families. Quite a busy week but I was so happy and sometimes I could not believe that my baby has become a man now. Before the circumcise, I told him it was like an ant bit you. Not that painful. Later he told me, it was so painful like a crocodile had bitten you. No wonder he cried a lot during that process. When we reached home, he was still crying but after one hour he stopped crying. No more pain. The next day when we went to the clinic to clean it up, other kids still did not look OK. The mothers asked me whether Ahmad cried at night. I said no. He recovered so fast. Thank god for every thing. Oh ya, I become a housewife now. Clean up the house, do the gardening and cooking. Last time I made my own fish balls. I learned it from internet. My family loved it, including my mother. My husband is so romantic. He is a different person, always smile and laugh. Well, he is a househusband now so he knows his job. Throw rubbish, go to the market, sometimes buy our breakfast, help me with the laundry. I fall in love with my husband again and again. When I remember him, I feel something in my heart. Love, babe. Now about my problem. My tummy, I want to get rid of the fat. Just wish me luck. Bye and take care.