i am back

Hi! I am back. Sorry for not updating my blog for so long. For the past few months, I had family problem. It was so bad. I cried at school. My choral speaking team saw me crying. I couldn't focus so for the result........we lost. Miss tan, pn faridah, even my mother did not believe that my team lost. I was not happy. But, now every thing is back to normal. I got my family back. Haiiii.....this is not because of my husband. This is all about my son. He was so rebellious that he always had a fight with his papa. I was torn between the two persons that i love most. Luckily, my son did listen to me. He was so scared that I would leave him. Now, he loves both of us. He follows the timetable that i set for him. He must finish his homework then he can play with his ultraman warriors and the monsters. He has a collection of ultraman. Mebius, Max, brothers, blue , red, two horns, one horn. He is really crazy about ultraman. He even told me that he wanted to become a fireman one day. Why? When he had problem, he just turned into ultraman. So easy. Hi......I really love my son. Good news, last fortnight during the kem membaca programme, my school won a lot of prizes. We beat tbs, syed idrus and agama repah. Yes, yes and yes. I was so proud of them. Yusah's team, rudrapreya, Chia Sean, amir yusof......all of them were the heroes. The most important is I got back my focus. Lots of work but I manage to do all because of focusing. Oh ya, I have changed now. I love cooking. I cooked for my family's break fast and predawn meal. Sometimes, I did follow my husband to bazar ramadhan to buy my favourite laksam and karamel dessert. Just cut my hair yesterday. Seatly, that nyonya missed me a lot. I had to tie up my hair before this. Looked like Mafia. At last, I have grown up. Too late right but it is not too late to change. My husband and my parents still pamper me. Now, my son. He will become a gentleman one day. Well, it is time to cook my squid sambal and masak kicap ikan tenggiri. Bye.....

love yourself

Hi! I am so worried about Lisa. She came to our school yesterday and i did not notice her at first. She was so slim and i do not like it at all. She looked so different. I preferred her last year look. She looked fit and sexy. Hiiiii......she told me that she was on a diet. What kind of diet was it. She did not like her look before. She thought the slimmer, the prettier. Hiiiii.........my husband did ask to eat less, all because of my tummy. I don't give a damn. I still feel good and i love the way I look except when I did not have enough sleep. I looked like a zombie. My mum said that I look better even my husband praised of my look only my tummy. He likes to make joke of my tummy but I feel OK. My problem is the tummy will look big at night but in the morning it will become flat. And of course after having breakfast, lunch and dinner it will become big again. Every morning I will have a heavy meal. Must eat rice. Please do not ruin yourself all because you want to look good. I think a big woman is cute. My eldest sister is big and a few of my nieces are big too. They are cute and pretty especially when they put on tudung. Their round face look so cute when wearing tudung. They take after my mother and my great grandfather. I am the combination of my parents. My height from my mother and thanks to my father for my slim body.special one is about my hair. Straight like my mum but curly, the front part like my father's. The bad temper from my father but the kind hearted from my mother. So good being the youngest one. You took every thing from your parents. Good advice. Love yourself, people will say bad about your look. Who cares. Our health is more important. Be happy and laugh a lot, you will look good. Take care.

seize the day

Hi! Miss my blog so much. No mood. Family problem. Don't know how to eplain it. Too complicated. I nearly set my mind to leave everything here and go somewhere. My mom was so worried about my problem that she had chestpained. Actually,I did not want to tell her but I was so sad I needed someone to share it. Now,everything is OK. We are happier than before. There's no more secret among us. I really love my family. I don't want to lose it. Everything is back to normal just like nothing had happened before. Well, that is life. I never expect to have this kind of problem in my life. When I was young I thought my life was so perfect compare to my friends. Got problem but it's not like this one. I had to be strong to face it. Luckily, it was all gone now. Oh ya, about my 3 a. I love that class. They are naughty but I think they are more sincere. Now, their result is OK. 10 students got b compare to 2 in their last test and only 7 students fail compare to 20 last time. Still, a few of them did ask me, why there was no a. Well, that depends on their effort. If they work harder, I am very sure 5 students can get a in pmr.....at least. Who knows. My choral speaking team....not bad. Just hope they will win. If only we can beat tbs. This is the best team. They are like lions roaring. They made me smile today. They gave me brilliant ideas to make the performance better. Wow.....work together to achieve our goal. Well.....I went to see a movie, jack the giant slayer. Couldn't help myself. I think it was OK because all of us wanted to see the movie, so we wouldn't do nothing bad. This Monday we will see bola kampung the movie. Then, Tuesday haiiiiiii choral speaking practice. Never mind. I still can enjoy myself. Bye!

say no to free sex

Hey! Now, I am in the mood to talk about love. We don't have to sacrifice our body to proof our love to the guys. Love is so beautiful and pure. If you love that guy, you won't do something that will hurt him. You will try to make him happy. You will care for him and worry about his safety. You always think of him. I don't understand why women or girls so cheap to allow men to touch their body. They said it is because of love. That's not love, idiot. That is what we call lust or nafsu in b. Melayu. I think to find virgins among Malay ladies are difficult nowadays. Imam's daughter, a 13 year old girl, university students, kampung girls, all are same. Their parents taught them the limit between boys and girls. They also learned it at school. But why? There was one case, when the couple was caught in a hotel room. The guy told the officer, they did nothing wrong because the girl was his fiancée. Hello stupid! Only when the girl has become your wife legally then, you can touch her. Another case, when a young girl was found pregnant, the mother scolded her by saying the guy should use condom. See! Modern mum, modern life, modern thinking have changed our way of life. So sad. They don't know the meaning of love anymore. If the guy loves the lady, he must proof that he is the real gentleman. Ready to show his responsibility to the woman that he loves, will give her shelter, will give her protection. Show your claim that she is your woman by marrying her not by getting her free of charge. It means prostitute is better than your girlfriend because you have to pay that bitch to have sex with her. Sorry, but that is the truth. Think about it OK.

sayang, honey, sweetheart or love........samalah tu

Hi! I really like this song. The music is so simple but her voice is so energetic. That's the strength of this song. I love the lyric too. Here's the lyric of sayang by shae. Sayang apa khabar denganmu. Di siniku merindukan kamu. Kuharap cintamu takkan berubah. Kern a di siniku tetap untuk mu. Sayang a pa khabar denganmu. Cubalah kamu telefon diriku. Kurindu dengar Sara indahmu. Kern a dirimu semangat hidupku. Sayang dengarlah permintaanku. Jan an ragukan cintaku. Sayang percayalah a pa kataku. Kernaku sayang kamu. Sayang dengarlah permintaanku. Jaga hatiku untukmu. Sayang dengarlah bisikan hatiku. Kernaku sayang kamu. I fell in love with this song when I heard it for the first time. Now, it has become so popular even my students, the malay boys like to sing it. Oh ya, there's nothing special to write as my husband told me already no Valentine's day celebration yesterday. I know that we cannot celebrate it as Muslims but.........never mind. Love all of you. Take care. Bye.

calm down.....take a deep breath.

Hi! I had a bad day yesterday. First, my son's pk hem called me in the morning. He wanted to see me today. Second, I typed my work wrongly. Third, my car hit my father's wheelbarrow. Fourth, mazita's student wrote the word cilakak on the libraray's whiteboard. I went out to fetch my son while they had nilam programme in the library. The worst was, he used permanent markerpen. Fifth, I had diarrhoea while teaching 3 a, had to rush to the toilet. Lastly, my hand got a long scratch while cleaning up the whiteboard. I was so angry yesterday and i am very sure Allah didn't like it. It was a punishment. Last year I was so angry to a lady who sold supplement to my father. He got sick after eating it. I was so angry that i scolded her. The next day, my son played outside. He got fever because of the hot weather. I couldn't blame god for that and i couldn't get angry with god. I must control my anger. I don't want Allah to hate me. Last week while watering my grass, I prayed to Allah to give us rains. I really pitied my yellowish grass. Then, Allah fulfilled my wish. Then, my laser programme last Wednesday. I prayed to Allah not to have rain that morning. I did not want to postpone it because I had prepared all the ingredients. Thanks to Allah, there was no rain and my 1 A boys could teach the students on how to make an egg sandwich. Oh ya! I did not watch Hansel and Gretel last week. I don't think I want to see movies anymore. I just bought pirated DVDs. I don't want to die in that kind of place. Oh ya happy holidays to all teachers and students. YAHOO!

a tongue slip

Hi! My son had a fight at his school. He and a few boys had to wash dishes at the canteen as a punishment. I asked cikgu hamzah for his wife's phone number. She is my son's disciplinary teacher. Mr vik just said, "he is like you. Love fighting" . Well, I just fight for the right thing. If the administrators give ideas that i cannot accept or I think ridiculous, of course I will fight. Just voice it. But my son......now about 3 a. I have tried to like that class but I can't. I have to love the students or at least like them, then they will get good results. That jian said that I am the best. I looked at him and said " you are the worst" . I feel bad. I do like some of them. Yap sun Wei, rinisha, mahalaxmy, vimal, pragash, nikman, aqilah, shazwan, see, oi sun Wei, agilan, wahab and najmi. I should change. I don't want to become incredible hulk in that class anymore. Must like all of them. God, please help me! Forget about all this. Tomorrow, my husband will take me to see a movie" Hansel and Gretel" yes! This Wednesday, we will have a video show at the library. It's marvel's avengers. The ticket is 50 cents only. May gee is trying her best to sell all the tickets. She is very helpful. Oh ya Chu a may gee is our pss club president. I know someone is not happy but she has changed. I don't care what people say about her. Today, Chan came to see me. He said something about Chua. I told him that i will talk to her about it and i am very sure she will listen to me. Now, Chan the prefect will see me first before he takes action on that person. I don't know why but I don't like it at all. He should relax a bit. Always try to find somebody's fault. Nobody is perfect, including him. About tongue slip. I said the wrong word during teaching Aids competition last year. We had it at bilk gerakan and i was the MC. It was Mr foo's turn to present his teaching aids. The title was permainan set. Before him, the presenters were all ladies so he was the first guy to present. I was so excited that when i introduced him I said the wrong words, Mr Foo Dan permainan sek. All the teachers were so shocked that they stopped clapping and looked at each other. I sat down and asked rosna, " aku salah cakap ke?" Slowly, she said, " awak cakap permainan sek" . It was so embarrassing. Later, I asked farain to know what did the teachers say about it. The teachers were shocked at first but then they said," takkan Lela cakap sek, kita salah dengar tak". Fuhhhhhh....what a relief!