dam! dum! bunyi mercun

Hi! Two more weeks before hari raya. My son begged me to buy him firework and I just said no. I don't want him to get hurt. He said that he will buy it from his friend and they will play at school. Where did he learn that threatening skill? May be my husband will buy that thing for him. When I was small, my bothers would buy that thing for us, the girls. As the youngest one, I preferred to watch them playing it. I was scared to hold it. Another scary thing is balloon. I like balloon and firework but I am just scared. Same with the height. Now, I am quite OK. Last time, I wouldn't dare to look down. All because of my second floor library. Sometimes, when I need my students' help, I just shout from there. Lots of practice can overcome your phobia. Tonight, I will go to the mosque to perform terawih prayer. No homemade hwri ray a cookies, just ordered as usual. Pity my big oven! Next time OK.

Just be good, ok

Hi! I think my eyesight is getting worse. It is time to visit the optometrist. Later la. This afternoon at school, suddenly I had chest pained. I stopped doing my work. I went to the canteen and bought some food, ayam percik, masak as am ikan tenggiri, Tempe goreng and masak lemak peria. Yummee, yummee, yummee. Heiiii be patient, I still have another three hours. Focus on the topic please. Why people like me so lazy to see a doctor? First, now I don't feel the pain anymore, so relax. May be I am just tired. If I want to see a doctor, I need my husband to take me there. It means I have to tell him about my chestpained and he will get worry. No need. I always think of other people first. Tried to change but I can't. I told my mom once that I am tired of being good. My mom asked me back, did you lose anythin when you are good? I told her no. In fact I got everything I want or more than what other people got. Then, she said, see, there's nothing wrong to be good. You should be grateful to God. Yes, what she said is right. We should appreciate what we have. I sacrifice for my family, God makes my life easy. It 's boring but better than people who lead difficult life. When I think of it....I AM So LUCKY.

Hi! My first day of fasting after seven days break. I am completely fine. Today, I had a chat with form one boys. They asked me about my Facebook. I told them that I have the account but I never open my Facebook. They asked me why? I said I was just curious to know about Facebook. I got e mails from the ones who want to join my Facebook but I just ignored. Same with being the follower of my own blog. I had problem with my blog at first so I just clicked sign in and walla i became the follower of my own blog. Idiot! And then the boys asked me whether I have friends. I said yes but I just want to focus on my family. Then, one boy said I should know how to divide my time. Just spend one hour on Facebook just like what his mother did. I told them that I have blog because I love writing. Another boy said,"boring ma'. Never mind everybody has their own opinion. Oh ya, my son did fast but only half days. 12.30pm he will break his fast. At least he tried. Oh ya! I did have the experience fasting in mecca and Medina. They didn't think of the food too much. As long as they had the dates and zam-zam water, enough. After that they I'll perform maghrib, isyak and terawih. Unlike us, from Malaysia. After performing maghrib prayer,we would go back to our hotel to have our sort of dinner. I really salute the people there. They were not rich but their iman and love to Allah is infinity. As long as they could perform umrah, visited rosulullah 's tomb and kaabah, they didn't care about the accommodation, transport, food or shopping. They just want to visit Allah's house, kaabah and they missed their rosulullah by visiting his tomb. Oh God I really miss to do all that. Do you know that our rosul was the perfect example of everything, marriage, love, children and friendship. He was the best and I mean it. I read articles about him and so far nobody could beat his kindness, gentleness, etc. Solawat for you our rosulullah.

A message to all couples

Hi! Just read articles about kristen Stewart cheats on Robert pattison. It was awful. I feel pity to both of them. I don't know why she did that but ma y be she's bored of being a good, loyal girlfriend. I think she loves Robert but she needs something to excite her dull, tired life. I am very sure she's not in love with the director, it's just a fling. Robert is too perfect or too good. One more thing a long distance relationship is a disaster. If you love someone, you won't leave her. Well, you can call her but it won't be the same. Certain type of women or men need their loved one to be by their side. Who will know your problem that you face, who will give you support right away and who will be there when you need someone....always the loved one. But what about if he's not around. He or she just listen to your voice only without knowing the real problem that you face. Hiiii...next time just follow the loved one anywhere he or she goes. If not, ask her or him to resign. Settle. Last time when I wanted to further my study abroad, my husband told me that he would take one year leave. He would leave his job for a year to be by my side. At the same time, he could tale care of our son there. When he said that, I was like oh my god this man wants to sacrifice his seniority just because I want to fulfill my dream. No way, he is the captain of this family, I won't let him to do that. So, I just cancelled it and now my husband got his promotion. That's more important than my dream. Husband and wife, girlfriend boyfriend cannot be in differerent way. There is only one way and we must always be together to share everything, the pain, the happiness and what is more important is LOVE. Put down our ego, remember all the good things that both of you share together , learn from your mistakes, starts a new life together.

Hi! Just got my new car last Saturday. OK lah. My only problem is the handbrake. I have to push it using my left foot. I think after one week I'll get use to it. Cikgu mazlan had requested to sell my crv to him. I don't know, may be this will be my last car. My first car was the cute kanchil, Gen 2 was the second one. After that I bought innova. So far, the best car was Inova. I felt safe. It was like a mother hugging a baby. Kanchil was scary, gen-2, the freedom but the boot was too small and crv, I feel anxious. Hiiii....can I change the topic? My parents are not well. I tried to help them but that's not enough. Must have someone to stay with them. Need to cook and clean the house. If we don't have a house may be we will move. Oh my god I feel so sleepy, need to take a map. Bye.

Ramadhan comes again......

Hi! Tomorrow will be the first day of Ramadhan. One boy asked me to go to his class to eat if I feel hungry. Very helpful but no thanks. My weakness is fasting because I love eating. I still remember my remove student asked me whether I was hungry because I kept scolding them. Sorry. There was an Indian girl in 2008 who was so worried about me. When I was not fasting (well, you know women cannot fast if they are having period) I just had dates and mineral water, enough but this girl bought for me cakes. She's so scared that I would pass out. When I was a small kid, after coming back from school, I would open the fridge and sat near it. It was so cool. Then, when I was a teenager, I would open the recipe books. I would read the ingredients and how to cook it. Looking at the picture of the food really calm me down. I hate feeding my niece and my nephew. It was like better to put the food into my mouth than their mouths. Now, I am OK. The food I have no problem to ignore but the thirst. I just pray to God it won't be so hot. My son, he is like me. Last year he didn't fast at all. He drank water from the tap in the toilet. Everybody in his school knew about it. So, I allowed him to bring his tumbler to school and because of that many of his friends followed his step. They also didn't fast. I really-really hope he will fast this year. Last year, I promised to buy him a mobile phone if he could fast for the whole month. But that boy didn't care at all. He said water is more important than the phone. OK, happy fasting. May all of us will become good Muslims. Amin.

Hi! I am still waiting for my new car. A few students did ask me about my Inova. I said bye-bye to that car last Monday. I got the buyer already. That Honda salesman promised me that I will get my car this Saturday. Well, we just wait. Actually, crv is not my dream car. My husband loves it and he said it is more Practical compare to Inova. My dream car is more than rm200,000. Aiya..it is really a car in my dream only. Now, I have problem with remembering people. Last time, a man said hello to me and we did had a chat. I thought he was a teacher but I didn't ask. Then before he left he raised his hand to my husband who was inside his car. Then I asked my husband who was that teacher. He looked at me and said that man is not a teacher, he is the fish monger at the PS market. Alamak, lucky I didn't ask that guy if not he would laugh at me. I have a good friend now. We always talk about cars. He is deaf so, how to communicate with him is through writing. This morning at the library, he sang a song to me. I couldn't understand what he said but he's OK. Had to force him to go back to his class. He knows all about cars especially the luxury ones. He knows when the new cars will come out and told me which cars are good. I have loyal customers at the library, Kevin's group. They are good, sometimes I asked them to help me. They always booked one place at the back . They didn't make noise, the only problem is it's so difficult to ask them to leave the library sometimes. But they will listen to me at last.III....kids