heaven or hell

Have you ever think of death? I always think of it. How will I die? When will I die? Am I good enough to enter heaven? What about hell? Either one will be my permanent residence. I will be happy forever in heaven or I will be tortured forever in hell. It is scary if you think of it, I mean the hell. They said it is easy for women to enter paradise. They must take care of their solat, fasting, aurat and the husband. Solat means you do not pray late, which I am still struggling to do it. The rest I think I have no problem. I love my husband so much more than my life. I will do anything just to make him happy. He is my perfect husband now. I cannot find his mistake. He is a very good man. He knows I miss my father so he works hard to make me happy. Last time, I told him that if I die I want him to bathe me. He, alone. He won't say anything bad about my body. He is the only one I can trust. Oh ya today is my birthday. My husband bought me fish n chip and my favourite cakes from secret recipe. Thank you so much. Love you as I always do.

A salute to you, my friend

I am a bit emotional tonight. Losing my father is like I have lost my right wing. I can't fly anymore. It is sad. So sad. But i still have my husband and my son. They always support me and make me happy. They help me to walk faster so I still can reach my destiny. I consider myself as lucky because i have my family behind me. They will push me to move forward. They won't leave me behind. I wonder the one who is all alone. He or she must be a very strong person. I don't think I am that strong. A salute to you. Take care.

making love is the best remedy

Hi! I am back. Happy to update my blog. How to start? My husband downloaded whatsapp and telegram for me. My ex school mates sent me welcome messages. I met my old friends Aae, Net, shahiza online. It was great. Really great. Oh ya. Today I am going to take my mum to the famous Nasi Arab Damsyik in Seremban. Just want to make her happy. Her happiness is my priority and thanks to my husband for being so supportive. My husband and i are very closed now. I could read his mind and so did he. He knew my mood so well. He loved when i was stressed. Why? Because he knew the remedy for it. Making love. Ha! Ha! Yes. I would be OK after that and i could sleep well. No need to see a counsellor, consultant or have a holiday trip. This way is free and you will have fun. Sometimes, if I had a big programme in school or anything, I would be tensed up. But by making love, it relaxed my mind and i could think well. It's like I am ready to face any challenge on that day. I just said based on my experience. It's up to you whether you want to believe it or not. Another advantage of making love is it burns your calories. It is like you are doing physical exercise in the gym. Ha! Ha! One more thing, my old friends looked at my picture profile in the whatsapp, their comment was I still look young. Yes!