Hi! My first day of fasting after seven days break. I am completely fine. Today, I had a chat with form one boys. They asked me about my Facebook. I told them that I have the account but I never open my Facebook. They asked me why? I said I was just curious to know about Facebook. I got e mails from the ones who want to join my Facebook but I just ignored. Same with being the follower of my own blog. I had problem with my blog at first so I just clicked sign in and walla i became the follower of my own blog. Idiot! And then the boys asked me whether I have friends. I said yes but I just want to focus on my family. Then, one boy said I should know how to divide my time. Just spend one hour on Facebook just like what his mother did. I told them that I have blog because I love writing. Another boy said,"boring ma'. Never mind everybody has their own opinion. Oh ya, my son did fast but only half days. 12.30pm he will break his fast. At least he tried. Oh ya! I did have the experience fasting in mecca and Medina. They didn't think of the food too much. As long as they had the dates and zam-zam water, enough. After that they I'll perform maghrib, isyak and terawih. Unlike us, from Malaysia. After performing maghrib prayer,we would go back to our hotel to have our sort of dinner. I really salute the people there. They were not rich but their iman and love to Allah is infinity. As long as they could perform umrah, visited rosulullah 's tomb and kaabah, they didn't care about the accommodation, transport, food or shopping. They just want to visit Allah's house, kaabah and they missed their rosulullah by visiting his tomb. Oh God I really miss to do all that. Do you know that our rosul was the perfect example of everything, marriage, love, children and friendship. He was the best and I mean it. I read articles about him and so far nobody could beat his kindness, gentleness, etc. Solawat for you our rosulullah.

A message to all couples

Hi! Just read articles about kristen Stewart cheats on Robert pattison. It was awful. I feel pity to both of them. I don't know why she did that but ma y be she's bored of being a good, loyal girlfriend. I think she loves Robert but she needs something to excite her dull, tired life. I am very sure she's not in love with the director, it's just a fling. Robert is too perfect or too good. One more thing a long distance relationship is a disaster. If you love someone, you won't leave her. Well, you can call her but it won't be the same. Certain type of women or men need their loved one to be by their side. Who will know your problem that you face, who will give you support right away and who will be there when you need someone....always the loved one. But what about if he's not around. He or she just listen to your voice only without knowing the real problem that you face. Hiiii...next time just follow the loved one anywhere he or she goes. If not, ask her or him to resign. Settle. Last time when I wanted to further my study abroad, my husband told me that he would take one year leave. He would leave his job for a year to be by my side. At the same time, he could tale care of our son there. When he said that, I was like oh my god this man wants to sacrifice his seniority just because I want to fulfill my dream. No way, he is the captain of this family, I won't let him to do that. So, I just cancelled it and now my husband got his promotion. That's more important than my dream. Husband and wife, girlfriend boyfriend cannot be in differerent way. There is only one way and we must always be together to share everything, the pain, the happiness and what is more important is LOVE. Put down our ego, remember all the good things that both of you share together , learn from your mistakes, starts a new life together.

Hi! Just got my new car last Saturday. OK lah. My only problem is the handbrake. I have to push it using my left foot. I think after one week I'll get use to it. Cikgu mazlan had requested to sell my crv to him. I don't know, may be this will be my last car. My first car was the cute kanchil, Gen 2 was the second one. After that I bought innova. So far, the best car was Inova. I felt safe. It was like a mother hugging a baby. Kanchil was scary, gen-2, the freedom but the boot was too small and crv, I feel anxious. Hiiii....can I change the topic? My parents are not well. I tried to help them but that's not enough. Must have someone to stay with them. Need to cook and clean the house. If we don't have a house may be we will move. Oh my god I feel so sleepy, need to take a map. Bye.

Ramadhan comes again......

Hi! Tomorrow will be the first day of Ramadhan. One boy asked me to go to his class to eat if I feel hungry. Very helpful but no thanks. My weakness is fasting because I love eating. I still remember my remove student asked me whether I was hungry because I kept scolding them. Sorry. There was an Indian girl in 2008 who was so worried about me. When I was not fasting (well, you know women cannot fast if they are having period) I just had dates and mineral water, enough but this girl bought for me cakes. She's so scared that I would pass out. When I was a small kid, after coming back from school, I would open the fridge and sat near it. It was so cool. Then, when I was a teenager, I would open the recipe books. I would read the ingredients and how to cook it. Looking at the picture of the food really calm me down. I hate feeding my niece and my nephew. It was like better to put the food into my mouth than their mouths. Now, I am OK. The food I have no problem to ignore but the thirst. I just pray to God it won't be so hot. My son, he is like me. Last year he didn't fast at all. He drank water from the tap in the toilet. Everybody in his school knew about it. So, I allowed him to bring his tumbler to school and because of that many of his friends followed his step. They also didn't fast. I really-really hope he will fast this year. Last year, I promised to buy him a mobile phone if he could fast for the whole month. But that boy didn't care at all. He said water is more important than the phone. OK, happy fasting. May all of us will become good Muslims. Amin.

Hi! I am still waiting for my new car. A few students did ask me about my Inova. I said bye-bye to that car last Monday. I got the buyer already. That Honda salesman promised me that I will get my car this Saturday. Well, we just wait. Actually, crv is not my dream car. My husband loves it and he said it is more Practical compare to Inova. My dream car is more than rm200,000. Aiya..it is really a car in my dream only. Now, I have problem with remembering people. Last time, a man said hello to me and we did had a chat. I thought he was a teacher but I didn't ask. Then before he left he raised his hand to my husband who was inside his car. Then I asked my husband who was that teacher. He looked at me and said that man is not a teacher, he is the fish monger at the PS market. Alamak, lucky I didn't ask that guy if not he would laugh at me. I have a good friend now. We always talk about cars. He is deaf so, how to communicate with him is through writing. This morning at the library, he sang a song to me. I couldn't understand what he said but he's OK. Had to force him to go back to his class. He knows all about cars especially the luxury ones. He knows when the new cars will come out and told me which cars are good. I have loyal customers at the library, Kevin's group. They are good, sometimes I asked them to help me. They always booked one place at the back . They didn't make noise, the only problem is it's so difficult to ask them to leave the library sometimes. But they will listen to me at last.III....kids

man, man and man

Do we need man in our life? Some of us (the women) think that without man we still can survive or our life is better without man. But what about me? Since I was small, I was close to my father. I shared my secret with him. He never told my mother. He really kept his promise. I have the best father. He always consoled me if my mother hurt my feeling. He didn't want me to feel difference when I was with my family. He would mention the great thing I did to my siblings and our relatives. He always proud of me. Now, I have another two men in my life, my husband and my son. They always make me happy. When I feel sad or scared, I just remember them. I feel stronger. I am just lucky to have good men in my life. My father never hit me . My husband too. That's why my son always hides behind me because he knows my husband won't hurt his protective mama. I told my students today that I don't mind to lose all my old friends but I don't want to lose my family. They still sent me messages asking me to join their activities. They can't accept that I have changed. I just want to lead a simple, happy life with my family. Oh ya about my intention to hand pss over to the young, single teacher.....that guy said no. I have already reached the peak that I do not want to hold this job anymore. I am very sure our school still can get A without me. I have prepared everything. She just needs to maintain it or beautify it. Easy. And I can focus on my job, teaching the critical subject. He doesn't see it. I want to see him but my hands tie up because of my son. I am afraid that if I make him angry, I can't fetch my son anymore. Last time during the meeting I did say something on how to improve the students' result. He didn't accept my idea and said something about controlling the teachers who go out which was not related to my suggestion. I knew he mean me so I just kept quiet after that. My husband reminded me so many times not to speak during the meeting. Just be a passive member and I will be safe. Some of the guys can't accept smarter women. Just listen to them and be good. Yucks!

Pss week is postponed. May be we will have it one week after hari raya. Hiiiii...never mind, i jut change the date. Last Friday, we went to see Spiderman movie. It was so damn good. It was better than avengers and all the old Spiderman movies. I love the story. It was more touching. The character was better. The new Spiderman was funny, romantic ,rebellious and sensitive. Ahmad loved watching it. He clapped his hands whenever the Spiderman showed himself. This Thursday I have to sit for a test. Yucks. I am still waiting for my crv. Patient, patient and be patient. Bye!

sorry!

Hi! Sorry for using the harsh words in the last post. I just do not understand why people need to be arrogant. We get nothing. I still remember a few pupils who were so good to me when I was in perak. Pupils from the last class in form five. The boys were so naughty. I was young at the time so they liked to disturb me. One day when I went into the class, the boys were doing work so they made a face and lazy to stand up. I was so angry, I just left the class. I didn't want to teach them. I went to the staff room and the girls came to apologise. I forgave them but I still didn't want to teach. What happened on the next day was the boys made a long line outside their class so before I entered , each one of them sang maafkan kami, maafkan kami. The girls also helped me a lot. Any ptogrammes at school, they would help me to arrange the tables, decorate the skirting, everything and never ask me to give them a treat at the canteen or ask money. When I was not well, the boys and girls came to my house with their motobikes. My husband was like...oh my God. On their last day at school, the girls came to see me. We cried. All the teachers looked at me and wondered why I cried for this kind of students. They were from the last class and of course we could not depend on them to get a good result. To me, good result is not important. They had the feeling of empathy, sympathy, respect, love that is more than enough! So far, I cried three times because of missing my students, the perak students, Rita and chong. I don't know may be they did touch my heart.

oh girl, please

Hi! There's something I am not satisfied with the students' attitude today. I don't know why they are so arrogant. If they think they are beautiful, there are women who are more beautiful than them. If they think they are smart, there are other students who are smarter than them, especially students at boarding school. You cannot imagine it. They know how to use their smart brain. They know which one is right and which is wrong. That's what we call "WISE". If they think they are rich, that is not their money, it is their parents' money. Why are you so proud? This is my principle of my life. If I think I am beautiful, there is another woman who is more beautiful than me,if I think I am rich, I should be ashame of myself. We have billionaires out there who are very humble. What about smart? I don't think I am smart ,with this age, my memory is not as good as before. But I am still good at making decision. If I think I am good, still there is someone who is better than me. This is life. You have to look at people around you with open eyes and open mind. Be realistic! To the naughty girls out there, what do you really want in your life. I was naughty but I had the limit. I wouldn't do something that would smudge my parents' image. Try to think wisely, if you are so bad can you become a good mother, teach your children the right thing to do. What about the guys? They enjoy to have this kind of woman as their friends or girlfriends but as the wife I don't think so. If I ask you to choose, the uncovered food with flies flying over it or the covered food, make you feel curious to know what is the food under the cover. Is it delicious? So, what is your choice?

long time no see

Hi! Miss my blog but lots of things to do. The grass, settled. My husband bought me Samsung galaxy tablet 7.0. I was so happy that I kissed him so many times on his face. I bought the small size because I can put it inside my handbag. Now, I a waiting for my new car. Luckily, my father let me to borrow his car. Next week, pss week. No cooking competition. I focus on history and agama subject. I made a bit change. I hope the school has no problem with my idea. I am tired but I am happy with my life. Next year I don't think I want to hold this job. I will pass it to a new teacher. May be she is better than me. A young,single teacher with fresh ideas. Hopefully,but I haven't discussed with cikgu aziz. Just hope that he will accept the fact that I really need to leave pss. I want to focus on my subject only. That is more important. Teaching is my passion and I think I will do the best for it.