A motivation for me!!

Hi! Lots of things happened at school. I am feeling down until today. Tried to look happy but my face is like an open book,easy to read. I hate school. I still did my work but it's not that good. Even teaching also, sometimes I got stucked. My husband tried his best to motivate me. I told him that I will change but.....May be I was pampered by Puan Soon that I cannot accept changes. Sometimes, the new one was too much. I couldn't accept it. Last Friday, the school called me at 12.50pm. I called the clerk at 3.00pm the reason for it. She said she didn't know about it because everyone had gone home except him. I was so scared that I cried while watering my plants. Then, I sat looking at my plants. I don't want to be afraid anymore. I must fight the feeling. He wants me to accept his style and I will do it. But it's easy to say but to face him, fuh! I don't know why I have become so weak. Relax! Relax! Everything will be ok.Oh ya! Talking about motivation. Last year, one girl told me about Chong. I would use his fullname when I was angry at him. Her story made me wanted to call him but then she said no need. She said that he has grown up and he should think well. I don't know but I just listened to her. Moreover, if I did call him, I don't think he will remember me. I just hope he has good friends or at least a good buddy, that is very important. When we have problems, we need to talk to someone that can lighten our problem. When I told my story to my sisters, they laughed because they said he was very funny. They didn't help at all. But whatever our problem is, do not end our life. Do not run away from it. How scared you are or how hard the problem is, we must face it and said I CAN DO IT (not to commit suicide loh). Take care!