you are my hero

Sorry. My hero, I mean my father is not well. I don't know. I am really worried about him. I just hope he will be ok. I really don't have the mood to share anything. In my mind, I just think of my father. I am not ready to lose him. I don't want him to leave me. It is sad. So sad. I cannot tell my friend about my father. I am afraid I will cry. I told him that if only I could share his pain but he said no. He has lived for almost 80 years old. 30th march will be his birthday. He wants me to live longer and have grandchildren or great grandchildren like him. I don't know. It is like a part of me has gone away. He did not want to eat medicine but when I begged him to eat it, he ate. I know he did not like it at all but he ate it. All because he felt pity to me. I think I better stop now. I don't want my husband to see my crying. He won't like it. I just let my heart cry..........